睡觉前的感想

有人可以依靠的感觉会很好。。。

一个人坚强独立了那么久。。。觉得好累，真希望会有那一刻。。。我可以永远赖着的人。。。

会有这个人的纯在吗？ 但我也很怕受伤。。。

哎。。。好矛盾哦。。

A post of random bits that might not make sense...

The current taiwan drama I have been watching is "Knock Knock loving you", a direct translation from the chinese title, 敲敲爱上你

I felt that my life is somewhat like the character in the drama, Yao Zi Wang. Maybe not in the same situation, but similar like hers. I shield my emotions a lot to protect myself. This is because when I get less involved, I get less hurt, and I will be less emotional. Perhaps, some people may not understand or think I'm a heartless person. But I have been hurt enough.

I wish I will not reach a point where I will ignore him like I did with May. Once I set my mind that I have enough, I will not talk to the person again. But he's not anybody, he's my kin. I still pin some hope that we can work things out together. Then again, I have lost the will power or energy to mend the pieces together.


Its so ironic. Even after creating this shield, I am supposed to be more care free. Why am I still feeling unhappy?


I think I heard him crying..wonder why.... tonight is a night of emo-ness.

Struggles

I am constantly struggling with the issue of dad's drinking.

It has come from a point from where I am concerned more about his health, to a point where I decided to wash my hands out of him. This is because all I get in return is empty promises, ignoring my calls. And most importantly, I am the only one bothered by it, not him. It is ultimately the person's decision and determination to take care of his health and not others that force him to do it.

There seems to be no solution to this problem. Sent email to talk about this issue, hoping to solve this problem. No replies and the solution is short term.

It appears to solve this problem quite easily since I reached a point where I don't care anymore but it is definitely not so!
His drinking habits caused him to vomit and this NOISE wakes me up in the middle of the night. I end up having to stay awake for a few hours at night, hoping to fall asleep fast. He doesn't have to wake up early to work, but I have to! I feel so tired and grumpy everyday, despite having to concentrate and do well in my studies (with part time job in the evening). I even have to suffer headaches due to lack of sleep! Its really a torture to me, I truly feel this way.

Perhaps, the solution is really to move out of the house. But I have my education to consider. I need to save as much as I can for my education and I WILL NOT allow money to be the factor that cause me not to be able to study. I'm sick and tired of listening to his promises of providing me money with education.

Its really sad that I always look up to him when I was younger and I loved him so much. Now its just reduced to frustrations.

I really want to settle this problem. But I no longer know what to do. I need help.

Miss T is feeling emo.................

I wonder what is causing this....was fine this afternoon. Don't like this miserable, lonely, empty feeling. Nothing I do is making it go away. Maybe I should just go to sleep. =`(

Relieved....

Am glad my weekdays dance classes are coming to an end................feel really drained of energy.

In need of comfort food...

Its such a tiring Wed.........really drained me out............

Vocabulary word wall I did for lil' children! =)

Miss T is.......

* playing silly games like Pet Society to de-stress

* happy with the nice garden she set up outside her home

* religiously using Dermedex products on her skin

* a bellydance instructor

* an efficient person

* shy person

* glad she has many friends that support her

* treasures her close friends very dearly

* an emotional person

* looks like a tough person but deep inside she is vulnerable

* enjoys simple pleasures of life

* lives life to the fullest

* making sure that she must do well so that she can do a cross-over

* learning and starting to enjoy the pleasures of teaching English

* fascinated by the wonders of Nature

* bad tempered sometimes

* has met like minded pple this semester

* impatient and must learn that patience is a virtue

* trying to be very positive

* trying to sort out her feelings about her dad

* currently single and happy although she doesn't mind being attached if she meets the right person

* looking forward for more happy moments in 2009

The exciting week!

Wed: We made the balloons kiss during our yeast experiments! hehehe! How cute is that?




Fri: Met up with Beng and Dory!!!!! Was so looking forward to that day! Had desserts at Canele! So heavenly!! We chatted till we were chased out of the cafe and talked on till 12mn. One night is never enough for the belly belles!!!! I love them so much!

The O so delicious, yummy strawberry crepe!

The yummy erm...chocolate thingy...with gold dust that cost $8.50 and the priceless Dory! hehe!


Sat: had our post family reunion with Gina's family,Ee-lin's family and mine! First it was dim sum at Red Star, KTV at Civil Service Club and Zhi Char at some family restaurant. Its been a long time since we have such gatherings. Am glad I organized it. My dear cousin is preggie and hope she'll have a smooth pregnancy! Looking for Wed, where we can catch up with Sheng and hopefully get my Naraya bags! =p

Sun: Got this unique plant at the market!!!! Its called the butterfly plant because of the leaves! I so love my garden can? Spent the last holiday setting it up! Am trying to grow plants from seeds!

Satisfied my zhui kuey cravings this morning too! hehe!

^_^ am a happy gal!


Next week is term break! Am so gonna work really hard to finish as many assignments I can! =P